Where to run
by Anya Newell
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Trapped in my own mind
I fail to see the safety
Always around me
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Split into three parts
There seems to be no balance
Though constantly sought
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Strong habits in place
Small comforts turned addictions
Instead of fleeing
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As I break away
I run to the trees and sky
For my reminder
Influence
by Anya Newell
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What is influence?
Is it me being like you?
Your thoughts, your ideas?
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That’s just the surface
First, it’s liking the same things
Is this influence?
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Then it’s style, taste
Ignoring small disagreements
Is this influence?
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Soon it’s not enough
To keep my precious morals
Standing against yours
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My mind should match yours
Is this still called influence?
Secrets are unfurled
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Differences stand firm
Backstabbing and gaslighting
Become the normal
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I was not enough
My beliefs didn’t matter
It was all your show
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Manipulation
Revealing its true colors
As your influence
eye of the storm
by Anya Newell
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Hurricane’s terror
Destruction everywhere
People laid to waste
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My life in shambles
Only living in pieces
Moment by moment
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Learning everyday
To find joy while it’s raining
Even in my pain
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Too cold by myself
No one will withstand my gale
To hold me closer
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Lest they beat the storm
And find me in the center
For I’m in the eye
unnecessary battles
by Anya Newell
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I will build my life
On the foundation of Rock
The presence of God
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Preparing my fields
In hopes of rain and blessing
After months of drought
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All self-inflicted
Due to lack of self-control
And guilty conscience
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Inner demons won
Inside the house made of glass
Where all stood witness
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Temptations take sway
As I battle for power
Though the fight’s not mine
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How do I let go?
How do I give up the reins?
Change my mind’s control?
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Find calvary’s hill
The blood that flows for my sins
The strength of one man
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Because of Jesus
I can call upon the Lord
To extract it all
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In full repentance
Christ takes over our battle
For He won the war